Cancer and Grief

As a stage 4 skin cancer survivor speaker who isbut that now through religious devotion they will
all too familiar with grief, I believe we suffer manybe redeemed and their cancer taken away. The
losses in our life when we have cancer;most prominent emotion in this stage is guilt,
acknowledge the losses and be gentle withwhich is a form of self-hatred. People promise
yourself.themselves, their loved ones, or God that they
Much of our life is taken away from us while wewill never again do the thing or things that they
have to deal with this terrible disease calledhave decided caused their cancer to come on in
cancer, and our loved ones experience grief alongthe first place.
with us. It was written by T.S. Eliot, "When weAfter a cancer patient has spent enough time
grieve truly we do it badly." What this means forfeeling guilty and/or trying to pray their way out
you is grief is a normal response to loss and if itof your cancer, they reach the stage of
is resisted or if attempts are made to suppress itDepression. Now the cancer cannot be denied and
to "keep up appearances" these will only result init cannot be bargained away and anger has not
your making things worse for yourself and thosecured it. Feelings of overwhelming sorrow that
around you.can cause sensations of physical heaviness come
Eventually the grief you hold in will explode out ofon. These feelings are normal. When a person is
you, or make your cancer even worse becausedepressed for any reason, there are physical
of the body-mind-spirit interconnection whichconditions that can manifest. These may include
defines your whole being. Let yourself grievetoo little or too much sleeping, changes in appetite,
"badly" so your grief can be expressed and youdifficulty concentrating on simple or everyday
can be a whole human being with your integrityactivities, or being haunted by a constant fear
intact. Weep, scream out loud, bury your face inthat someone else in the family is now also going
your hands or anything else to express your grief.to get cancer. Depression should be readily
Researchers are in agreement that essentiallyacknowledged and talked about with trusted
grief comes to most people in successive stages,friends and family, religious figures such as priests,
usually five distinct ones.psychiatrists, and/or the presiding medical doctors.
In the Denial stage, people try to makeDepression can be a lengthy stage, but at last
themselves believe that the cancer diagnosis iscomes the stage of Acceptance. This is where a
simply a mistake--it's not happening to them orperson no longer resists the diagnosis of cancer
their family. This is a self-protection instinct thatnor tries to wish it or pray it away. It is in the
often leaves people feeling numb or in a state ofstage of Acceptance where a cancer patient
shock.begins finding the strength to truly fight the
Next comes the stage of Anger. Now a personcancer--this is NOT an acceptance of death.
accepts that the cancer diagnosis is not aAcceptance has paradoxically positive effects on
mistake--it's real. But the "why me?" attitude risesthe patient and the loved ones. This is actually a
up and there is white-hot outrage that cancer hastype of natural cancer treatment, as it feeds
come to them, or a friend or loved one. One ofpositive energy into the body-mind-spirit matrix
the best ways of handling this anger is toand facilitates health.
exercise or otherwise get some high-energy,Acceptance banishes guilt, too; for in this stage
focused physical activity. People also find it verythe person realizes that it's not their self that is to
helpful to discuss cancer with others who havebe hated, but the cancer. Cancer is not a moral
experienced it or been touched by it, or to writeissue. It is a matter of needing to make some
about their experiences and feelings in a journal.changes for the sake of one's health. This means
This stage spills over into the one called Bargaining.finding and accepting the changes needed to be
Many people here suddenly find religion, thinkingmade and then healing body, mind, emotions and
they have angered God or the divine somehowspirit.